Unfortunately, that also means that it has been 3 months since my dad died. I hate that every time a "monthaversary" comes around it will also remind me of the loss of my dad. Dealing with the loss of a parent would be hard in itself. Dealing with the suicide of a parent is almost overwhelming.
There's so many questions, so many What if's, so many regrets... If I did not have Jesus, I can't imagine the emotional stat
e that I would be in right now. Has he given me all the answers? No. Has he shown me the future to let me know how everything is going to work out? No. Has he completely healed my pain? No...net yet. But what he has done is soothe me. He has given me peace in the midst of the worst storm of my life. He has raised up people in my life to love on me and to support me. He has provided in places where I didn't even know I had a need. He is real and has been real in this storm of my life. And I'm thankful.
I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry. My dad died October 2007 and it is hard. My step-brother's step-dad {oh the tangle web we weave} just committed suicide almost 5 months ago and it is a struggle for him everyday. My heart goes out to you, even though time doesn't heal the wound it makes it a little easier to cope with.
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